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Ready to Rain
Last year, sitting at the desk, I was writing a letter to you word by word listening to the wind before the rain started to fall. The wind was wet, as were my eyes and my heart. It was going to rain here while the snow hadn't yet melted in your place. We live at the two ends of the earth, so far apart as day and night and so distant as the love between you and me.
As for you, I didn't feel satisfied with myself since I couldn't get rid of you nor could I forget about you completely. (For this, I should give myself applause.) I have been leaning how to forget a person.
Forgetting you is my life-long course. However, I think I will not think of you even once some day in the future. It will be just like the computer which I forgot to turn off last night. One day, I will forget about you just like it and treat you as a stranger.
But now it is going to rain, which makes me think of you again due to the wet wind. I remember that I have written down, "I miss you." in the same rain and wind.
At that moment, I was expecting your answer; my mood was also wet.
The same rain and the same simple mind can easily sketch you, but I can't. What do you look like? I can't imagine, nor can I presume.
What if there is a day when we pass each other in the street and we can't even recognize each other?
So what? Loneliness is a fact of all human lives, including mine. Love is everyone's dream but it can only be found, not sought.
For me, I have already given it up. Let it slip away with the wind and my wet mood.
Imagine the rainy season will come soon.
準備好好下一場雨
去年也是在這要下雨前的風裡。我，坐在電腦桌前，一字一句的寫信給你。風濕濕的
我的眼，我的心，也濕濕的。我這裡要下雨了，你那裡的雪還沒溶呢！我們在地球的兩邊，白天與黑夜，最遠的距離，一如愛情對我們來說也是最遠的距離。
我對你，不算成功也沒有失敗。本來以為自己可以真的戒掉你，卻只算是做到了一半(我該替自己鼓掌的)，我還在學習遺忘中。
遺忘你是我一生的課程。但我想，終有一天，我會連想起來的機會，都沒了。就像昨晚忘了關電腦，直到今晨開電腦時我才想起。我也會像這樣子對你，像對陌生人一樣。
只是這要下雨前的風，濕濕的，不知怎的，就讓我想起了你。想起了我曾經在這樣的風裡雨裡，一字一句的寫下，我、想、你。
期待著你的回音，那心情也是濕濕的。
這樣的風，這樣的簡單，就能勾勒出你的形象，我卻不能。你到底是長什麼樣子呢?
我無從想起，也無法推測。
會不會有一天，我們在街頭擦身而過，我卻無法認出你來?
那又怎樣，寂寞是全世界的事，不缺我一個。愛情是全人類的夢，可遇不可求。
而我，是不求了。就讓它輕輕的溜走吧！帶著這下雨前濕濕的風，和我濕濕的心情。
等待著，想像中的雨季來臨。
Jul 8, 2017 07:48
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